I need accountability in my life. I have the personality (at times) where, if no one is looking, I might not do things as well as I would do if I were being put under a microscope. I understand this is an integrity/ethics issue, and I'm really trying to work on it. Pray for me, that God would help me become more of a mature person who does her best all the time.
I understand that I also have to rely on myself. Ultimately, I have to be the one that decides to do this. God will give me the strength to do so.
I am feeling frustrated that I will not be able to meet my goal. I have pretty much stayed at the same weight as when I posted that entry. It's frustrating to me. Part of the reason (because I must explain my excuses, haha) is that I got a pretty significant injury in my calf that WOULD NOT go away for about 3-4 weeks. And then, when I would start exercising again, it would act up again. I finally prayed through it and continued to pray healing over it, and guess what? It got better, pretty fast too. God is so awesome :)
After that, I got a horrible chest cold which lasted over a week, so I didn't exercise due to that.
And since then (about 3 weeks ago) I've had NO excuse.
However, I haven't been completely inactive. Wesley and I have gone to the park several times and walked the dogs and enjoyed the weather. One time, Wesley and I even ran (until my leg started acting up). So I'm not a complete giver-upper.
The thing is, I really could just about do without exercise in the formal sense. I could never go into a gym again in my life, and I would be just fine. However, we are paying money per month due to a contract with our gym, so we NEED to use the gym as much as possible. If we don't, it's like we're throwing our money away. Not a good thing.
So, where I am today: I still need to lose 20 pounds. What's crazy is, I feel like if I could really and truly commit to this, I think I might just be able to pull that off before we leave in September. I really do.
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There are two areas I have struggled in for self-discipline:
1) exercising
2) eating right
Now, I am not one to just heif it up without any concern or caution. I wouldn't consider myself a binge eater. I don't eat meals with the words "heart attack" stamped on them. But my thing is, I really hate to cook. I mean, I will just admit that I do. I know that makes me a pathetic excuse for a woman, but it's the truth. Perhaps if I didn't work a full time job, it would be different (I know there are rockstar women who work full time and cook too, but I'm just not one of them). So, we end up going out to eat and eating out does not offer healthy choices at all (unless you go to more expensive places).
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Things that have become staples in my semi-improved, daily eating:
Apples are amazing. I will eat one for breakfast and not feel significantly hungry until around 9:30-10:00. And if I push through the initial hunger, I can make it til 12.
I used to use two packages of oatmeal (thinking I needed that much oatmeal to "get through" the day) but I recently cut back to just one package, and I am completely satisfied until around 12.
Almonds are ridiculously awesome. They are the perfect solution for ravenous hunger. They're seriously like a magic pill for me. If I am about to go cross-eyed with hunger, I eat a handful, wait about 10 minutes, and walah: satisfaction.
These are my favorite finds of my healthy eating endeavours; Jenni-O Savory Seasoned Turkey Burgers. They are SO good. I found them at Wal-Mart. Look hard for them. You won't even miss burgers (that much). Now, turkey bacon on the other hand...I'm still trying to develop a love affair with it. I like thicker bacon, and turkey bacon seems to be a little too flimsy for me.
Carrots. Mmmmm! I do it a little different: instead of getting the baby carrots, I get the full sized carrots and peel and chop them as a side for lunch. I feel like they have better flavor than the baby carrots.
Grapefruit! This was very surprising to me. I've always actually despised grapefruit, but here recently, I gave it another shot, and I loved it!
Yes, I know Peter Pan Peanut Butter had that pesky problem with recalls, and it's really not the best for me...but oh how it staves my hunger! Now, I hope someone will read this and be able to suggest a healthier alternative, so please...suggest away!
I have also started taking a Flintstone vitamin and Vitamin C every morning to help keep me healthy.
I hope to add more to my staples (that is my goal). As I add healthier alternatives, I take away one bad thing.
For example:
Mashed potatoes used to be a staple in our household. We ate it with almost any meat. But then I read how VERY bad they were for me due to my PCOS and the starches turning immediately into sugar, so I started replacing this with vegetables instead (fresh green beans, asparagus, and snap peas). Now, although I used to desperately love mashed potatoes, I don't even miss them! (french fries are another issue entirely).
I have also tried adding different meats. I have cooked lamb twice (which I'm still getting used to. It has an interesting taste. Good, but weird at the same time) and we just recently bought some bison. I want to try fish, but I am scared of this. The idea of going to the store and getting it fresh and cooking it is intimidating.
What are some things you enjoy that are healthy? I need suggestions.
