Google is not always the answer.

So, I've become a google addict.
Whenever I am curious about something or want to learn more, I simply google it. Usually, this provides positive things, educating me more on the subject, comforting me with wisdom, adding to my knowledge, etc.

Not so sure I want to google medical procedures anymore.

I have an appointment on Wednesday for a very scary procedure. The thing is, most of my worries/fear are due to what I've read via Google. Somewhere along the lines of "this hurts incredibly bad; I almost passed out from the pain; it was WORSE THAN LABOR."

Oh my goodness. I am terrified.

So, it's comes to a point where I trust Google more than I trust people in my life. For example, this is a fairly common procedure for women who have issues such as mine, and in fact, someone I work with has had the procedure done. She said "no problem Ashley! You'll be fine! It doesn't hurt that bad!"

But in the back of my mind, I assume she's lying. I think she's just trying to sugar coat it for me so that I won't be as scared. I trust strangers more than people I know.

That is pretty twisted. Why do I do this? Why in the world?

It's because I've gone to Google time and time again. It's so convenient. It's so easy. It's a quick fix to find things out.

Maybe Google is a bit like sin. We go to it time and time again because we try to trust our own instincts instead of the instincts of the Spirit inside of us. A quick fix, an easy solution. Convenient. Then, once we get back from that rebellion and instead try to go to God first, we sometimes have problems trusting what He tells us. We want to run back to when we did things ourselves, because somewhere inside, we believe we did it BEST. We learn the hard way. We fall, get back up again, and run back to Him. And He certainly doesn't sugar coat anything.

God is so amazingly good, and He is best when we are at our weakest. Sometimes though, we don't allow ourselves to get at our weakest. He really has to humble us in order for us to need Him. And that process, while painful, is the best place to be in. In that, I receive knowledge and blessings beyond my own comprehension.

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Can you guys please leave encouraging scriptures for me to read on this day? I am going to type them out and read them over and over again to help calm my fears. I'm afraid anxiety might make the procedure worse, so I need to be calm, relaxed, and in a trusting Spirit. Please lift me up in prayer as well on that day. I'm sure I will be fine. No... I know it. I just need some encouragement.