Feeling motivated!

Ok, so my goal is to get past the two month mark. If I can do that, then I feel I have actually formed a HABIT: of eating good most of the time, and working out or exercising every day. I always tend to fall off of the wagon after 1.5 months, so this will be something to work toward.

I have went to the gym 3 days in a row, and I really do feel fabulous. I am sore, of course, but I really feel a lot better about myself and feel like I have more energy. This always happens, so why don't I stick with it? Ugh. Things will be different this time.

So, I am going to set up mini rewards for myself during this weight loss process. I am definitely a person who can be competitive and work toward rewards, so this will help me do so. I haven't figured out what my mini rewards will be yet (which will be in 5 lb increments), but here's what I've thought of so far:

10 lbs- pedicure, since I get these ONLY for special occasions

20 lbs- mini trip somewhere fun (this would be good if it fell right around the time we celebrated our 2 year, because then that would work out well. Otherwise, we'll have to figure out something cheap and inexpensive that will still feel like a reward...which is easy for me, since I simply love to travel.

At least 25-30 lbs- A little black dress. And another reward yet to be determined.

Let me talk about the background behind the last goal.

I've heard for years that every woman should have a "little black dress." But I've never thought that I would look good in anything that has "little" in the title. And I don't even know if after 25-30 lbs lost if I will still feel comfortable finding a little black dress, but I sure hope I do. This reward has room for additions/changes. And by little black dress, I don't mean skanky; I mean spaghetti straps, and something above the knee, since I hardly ever wear anything above the knee.

So that is my list! Question: what do you think could be my mini goals? I am having problems thinking of any.


Also, I am going to keep a record of my endurance while jogging on the treadmill. I usually put the treadmill to 4.5 mph and jog. I will be updating this sporadically.

1/18- jogged for one minute straight

1/19- jogged for 1.5 minutes straight

... and so on. This may not sound like much (and I'm sure it's not) but let's get one thing straight: I am NOT a runner/jogger by any means. And I'm not saying from this experience that I'm going to become one. But I figured tracking my endurance is the easiest way to see how I'm progressing.

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I finally got the book I ordered The Natural Diet Solution for PCOS and Fertility. I can't wait to dig in and see if there are any practical things that can help me in my goals. I definitely want to develop healthy eating habits now, because if I don't, I run the risk of serious diseases and immobility when I become older. And I don't want that. I want to be the fit grandma that still hikes and takes trips and plays with her grandchildren.

I think it's really begun to sink in that feeding my fleshly, selfish desires of bad food is just ridiculous. Eating all of that bad food is not worth sacrificing my health. And it's just FOOD.

I don't know why it has such control over me. I'm not someone who binges (well, maybe occasionally, but very rare), but I AM an emotional eater. I think that's partly what has caused it as well as my inactivity. Oh, and of course, there's the dreaded PCOS, which is the reason for me gaining as much as I have since going off birth control a year ago. And it's not that I'm a couch potato, but working a draining job sometimes makes you believe that you don't have time or energy to exercise. But that's just not the case. I drove 4.5 hours roundtrip today, and I still managed to put in an hour at the gym. I'm definitely not bragging; I'm more encouraging myself so that I can realize that I should ALWAYS make time to exercise.

Well, that's enough rambling for one entry.